In all honesty...

I wish this wasn't so damn hard....I was just thinking that it's funny how most people say oh I have no problem changing my eating habits its the working out part I can't do, now I am the exact fricken opposite. I would rather work out four hours a day than change my eating habits, I think mostly because it is alot of work to figure out calories, and also I have horrible cravings and I always give in. I just need one whole week of not giving in and I think I will be ok. That being said, I have not been eating so well the last few days...I had taco bell tonight, and a brownie sundae from mcdonald's while I was working....SHAME on me right, well I guess that just means it's gonna take more time in the gym tomorrow to burn off the extra calories I consumed tonight. Darn... Well I just hope that I see some results within the month. I do notice I have SOOO much more energy and sleep better now that I am on a regular schedule of exercising!

This past week

has been very busy. I have been careful to track my diet and exercise and I am working on decreasing the amount of calories I am currently taking in. It is not an easy task for me, since I love food. I started working out this past weekend with my workout buddy Amanda, and we have been to the gym 3 times since sunday. I am sore but overall I have much more energy and I like working out, its actually really fun because its a challenge. I have been trying to pack a lunch and write down any snacks I eat as well at work. I am focusing right now not so much on weight loss but building muscle as each pound of muscle burns an extra 35 to 50 calories a day just at resting rate. I also learned that one pound of fat contains 3500 calories. WOW thats just crazy! Well I have not weighed myself yet because I am only going to weigh monthly, so my next weight will be on Nov. 2nd because I just get discouraged so easily, if I do not lose weight I give up pretty easily. I am glad I have someone who is a support system for me, I just tell her when I am having a bad day or a craving or if I cheat and have a bad food, because it keeps me more on track knowing that I have to tell her if I eat it, lol. Oh at the gym on sunday I had my body fat percentage measured and it was 46.2%. This will be something I will also use to monitor my weight loss.

A little history....

Most of you know me, but for those who don't, my name is Jody, I am 22 years old and Mommy to one gorgeous little girl. I have been overweight since I was about 13 years old, and have decided that I am ready to take on this weight loss challenge once and for all. I have dieted before and lost weight, then gained it back, and then I got pregnant in december of '06, and starting weight was 293 lbs, by the time Isabella was born I was 338 lbs. After I had her I was still in school and eating very poorly, breastfeeding (which kept me incredibly starving all the time) and by about 6 weeks PP I was dowwn to about 328lbs. I finished school and started a new job, and now am ready to try to lose the rest of my weight. I am currently 320.7 lbs, and my ultimate goal is 180lbs. I am starting to track my diet and exercise on a wonderful website called SparkPeople.com, they have an awesome program to assist with weight loss, and its free. They have recipes, grocery lists, meal plans week by week, and an exercise tracker, and a food journal that calculates your calories for the day. I recommend it to just about anyone who is interested in losing weight, its been a good tool, I am reading through the articles and learning alot of useful information. This weekend on Sunday me and a friend will be reopening our gym memberships so we can start working out together, since I am one who always needs a motivational buddy. She definitely doesn't have to lose near as much as me (I want to lose about 140 lbs), she is about 20-30 away from her goal but she is sooo inspiring and she believes I can do it.